I'm good. I've got people too, even if I didn't want 'em to start with.
[a soft, rueful smile. she'd let alayne in almost by accident, and then it just snowballed. it had been easy, even. sometimes she wonders how much of that is the design of trench, the idea of second chances. most of the time, she doesn't care. it doesn't matter why it happened - now it just is.]
I wouldn't say that's true. You think Manabu would give you a place to stay if you didn't matter? He's a good dude, but come on, that's---
---you matter to him, and you matter to me. Think I'd be here if you weren't a priority? I could've been like "sucks" and went on with my day.
[would she have done that to someone else? maybe not that rudely, no, and maybe not at all, but there wouldn't have been such a sense of urgency.
petting the dog helps. saying this stuff out loud helps, too.]
Looks like we're in two clubs together, kid. Cause I'm not special either.
[do they merge the badges? get two badges? 'people who hate themselves and are not special' meeting is in session.]
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Date: 2022-09-16 05:37 pm (UTC)[a soft, rueful smile. she'd let alayne in almost by accident, and then it just snowballed. it had been easy, even. sometimes she wonders how much of that is the design of trench, the idea of second chances. most of the time, she doesn't care. it doesn't matter why it happened - now it just is.]
I wouldn't say that's true. You think Manabu would give you a place to stay if you didn't matter? He's a good dude, but come on, that's---
---you matter to him, and you matter to me. Think I'd be here if you weren't a priority? I could've been like "sucks" and went on with my day.
[would she have done that to someone else? maybe not that rudely, no, and maybe not at all, but there wouldn't have been such a sense of urgency.
petting the dog helps. saying this stuff out loud helps, too.]
Looks like we're in two clubs together, kid. Cause I'm not special either.
[do they merge the badges? get two badges? 'people who hate themselves and are not special' meeting is in session.]