[sometimes it works out more than others. get up keep trying, that's her mantra here. she supposes very few people are decent without trying, refusing to cut herself the slack she would give anyone else in trench, even john gaius, were things explained to her by the right people.
he's right. and like she'd said, she could have said 'sucks' and kept to herself. that's not who she is here, maybe that's not who she ever really was.
she moves her finger a fraction so that it just bumps against his, just an easy, casual thing, no big deal. yeah, it's something, and she won't push it.]
It was a little selfish, yeah. But it also made her ...happy. I hadn't seen her happy since well before I got locked up. So not totally selfish. The last time I really knew her was when she was ...younger than you.
[but if powder had shown up here. oh no. no.
The shitty parts of both our brains can just get in the ocean and go.
[He doesn't move his hand away - the touch is nice, even if he doesn't want to admit it. He's never been a touchy person. Usually the most touch he got was shoulder punches from Waku or Kanji.]
That's... good. I'm glad that she was happy. She... she's important to you, so if you're happy about it, that's good.
[He sighs and closes his eyes. This is all a lot.]
I hope... if she went somewhere after dying, that it's a good place.
[vi doesn't know what she is anymore. she'd been affectionate with her sister, with vander - even with her own crew - until that was ...gone and then she just wasn't anything but angry anymore. the opportunity of affection hadn't even been offered to her until a few days before she'd turned up here - and she'd rejected it at first, even though a part of her (most of her) wanted it. here? she gets to choose who she is to some degree. she can choose not to shove it away when it's offered.
so that's what she does. it is a lot. all of it. it's also ...not terrible. she nods again as he speaks, agreeing, acknowledging. offering another small smile and leaving her hand where it is. should he take a bit of a nap, she'll sit here as he does. there's a dog that needs more pets, after all. if he just wants to sit in silence, that's cool, too.]
[ooc: some time later - when they train next most likely - she'll casually hand him a small jar of vile bloodstones after muscles are pulled and bones are aching.]
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Date: 2022-09-21 04:00 am (UTC)[sometimes it works out more than others. get up keep trying, that's her mantra here. she supposes very few people are decent without trying, refusing to cut herself the slack she would give anyone else in trench, even john gaius, were things explained to her by the right people.
he's right. and like she'd said, she could have said 'sucks' and kept to herself. that's not who she is here, maybe that's not who she ever really was.
she moves her finger a fraction so that it just bumps against his, just an easy, casual thing, no big deal. yeah, it's something, and she won't push it.]
It was a little selfish, yeah. But it also made her ...happy. I hadn't seen her happy since well before I got locked up. So not totally selfish. The last time I really knew her was when she was ...younger than you.
[but if powder had shown up here. oh no. no.
The shitty parts of both our brains can just get in the ocean and go.
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Date: 2022-09-22 12:31 am (UTC)That's... good. I'm glad that she was happy. She... she's important to you, so if you're happy about it, that's good.
[He sighs and closes his eyes. This is all a lot.]
I hope... if she went somewhere after dying, that it's a good place.
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Date: 2022-09-22 06:18 pm (UTC)so that's what she does. it is a lot. all of it. it's also ...not terrible. she nods again as he speaks, agreeing, acknowledging. offering another small smile and leaving her hand where it is. should he take a bit of a nap, she'll sit here as he does. there's a dog that needs more pets, after all. if he just wants to sit in silence, that's cool, too.]
[ooc: some time later - when they train next most likely - she'll casually hand him a small jar of vile bloodstones after muscles are pulled and bones are aching.]