Probably the same reason I stuffed myself into a suitcase to travel from Japan to England without a thought of how it would actually work. [He smiles gently, reaching out to place his hand on his shoulder.] Because you care for him.
What stupid thing are you thinking of doing? [Hopefully it wasn't too dangerous.]
[A long story and a pretty ridiculous reason for contorting himself into a suitcase, but he's willing to tell it if asked.]
I'm sure it's not that stupid. [He smiles a bit though.] If you don't want to share that's all right too. I can just keep you from doing whatever it is.
[There's a pause, some confusion as he looks over Jun.] You were thinking of...
[Oh. Oh. Ryunosuke's confusion turns into worry as he tries to piece together why Jun would want to do something of that magnitude. He doesn't think he could do something like that if Manabu or Kazuma were to die but... maybe he could relate a bit.]
Sometimes... it's hard to live when you lose someone you're close to. [He says carefully, remembering how hard he took Kazuma's death.] It's not stupid to have those thoughts... to wonder. I think I contemplated throwing myself to the sea once or twice. It's easy to say "be positive", but I think that's what we need to do right now.
Following him won't make you feel better if you come back and he still hasn't returned. [Was that too harsh? He hopes not.]
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Date: 2023-02-16 01:09 am (UTC)What stupid thing are you thinking of doing? [Hopefully it wasn't too dangerous.]
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Date: 2023-02-17 08:17 pm (UTC)[He goes silent at the question and stares at the floor.]
I... really shouldn't say.
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Date: 2023-02-18 08:28 pm (UTC)[A long story and a pretty ridiculous reason for contorting himself into a suitcase, but he's willing to tell it if asked.]
I'm sure it's not that stupid. [He smiles a bit though.] If you don't want to share that's all right too. I can just keep you from doing whatever it is.
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Date: 2023-02-18 11:36 pm (UTC)[He bits his lip and shakes his head. He shouldn't depress someone else.]
I just... keep thinking about going after him. I know he wouldn't want me to, but...
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Date: 2023-02-18 11:44 pm (UTC)[There's a pause, some confusion as he looks over Jun.] You were thinking of...
[Oh. Oh. Ryunosuke's confusion turns into worry as he tries to piece together why Jun would want to do something of that magnitude. He doesn't think he could do something like that if Manabu or Kazuma were to die but... maybe he could relate a bit.]
Sometimes... it's hard to live when you lose someone you're close to. [He says carefully, remembering how hard he took Kazuma's death.] It's not stupid to have those thoughts... to wonder. I think I contemplated throwing myself to the sea once or twice. It's easy to say "be positive", but I think that's what we need to do right now.
Following him won't make you feel better if you come back and he still hasn't returned. [Was that too harsh? He hopes not.]
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Date: 2023-02-19 01:38 am (UTC)I just ant him back. I keep walking along the shore hoping to find him but... nothing.
[He knows it's not time for new arrivals yet, but Falco's not new. He should be back by now.]
It just hurts.
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Date: 2023-02-20 11:03 pm (UTC)[He can't count the times he's looked at Kazuma and find himself thinking that he's a ghost.]
But we work through it. It's not easy, and I'm not saying it'll happen overnight, but you have friends who are happy to help and listen.
I'm sure we'll have answers soon. [He hopes, for Jun's sake, that Falco does come back, but he will be here for him should he not return.]
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Date: 2023-02-21 01:53 am (UTC)But that would mean not feeling anything.
And that's... that would be bad...