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[icanhearscreams]

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[icanhearscreams]

Everything.

The ocean too I guess. I keep waiting by it, even though I know that's stupid.

[centile]

are you waiting for someone?

[he vaguely knows people die and wake up there, though he kind of hopes this is a matter of waiting for someone from home. not the reality, sadly.]

[icanhearscreams]

Someone I care for very much died.

I'm waiting for him to come back.

[centile]

[ah. so the worse choice.]

i don't think waiting is stupid then.


jun, would flying make you feel better? i can't really do much, but i can help you fly for a little while, if you wanted

[icanhearscreams]

I don't know. It was a dumb idea, I guess. But...

... How would you do that?

[centile]

it's something i've been learning to do more, but i can give people some of my power for a little while?
i gave some to robby a couple of times
and you could use it to float and fly, i think. i can do that, so i you should be able to

[icanhearscreams]

... I don't know. I don't known if it'd even make me feel better at all.

Nothing seems to work lately.

[centile]

we can try, if you want. even if it doesn't work that's okay, i think. maybe you just need time to be sad

do you want to talk about it?

[icanhearscreams]

... I guess it's worth a try. And yeah, that's what people are saying.

I... don't know. He was sick but didn't tell me. So when this place made him older it caught up with him.

[centile]

okay, i'll come over

[which he'll start moving that way now! but until then]

i see. this place can be pretty cruel
what's his name?

[icanhearscreams]

Falco. He's Falco.

... I miss him more than I can say.

[centile]

[oh. he needs a second there, he didn't realize-]

i met him. he helped me when i was in a trap in the forest

he's really kind

[icanhearscreams]

He is. He's kind and strong and brave and

I don't know what to do without him

It hurts

[centile]

[well, time to move faster towards jun's house. this is a lot, and frankly he knows there's very little he can do or say but that doesn't mean he shouldn't try. or just... be there, until asked not to be. something.

jun deserves the effort. falco, he would probably want people there for jun too.]

does talking about it feel better or worse?

[icanhearscreams]

It's hard to tell when everything hruts

[He doesn't bother to correct the typo. He's stopped caring for the moment.]

[centile]

[that's fair, and it's about now that mob reaches jun's place. the roost? regardless he'll knock, turning back to his omni to type:]

i'm here

[icanhearscreams]

[Actually no. It's a small little house. It's kind of cramped, but he lets Mob in when the other boy knocks. He's cleared Manabu's blankets off of the couch and put them in a rough pile, but it's a bit messy with how many people live here.]

... Hi.

[He steps aside to let the other boy through.]

... I didn't mean to make you have to go through the trouble...

[centile]

[mob glances around a single moment before offering a little bow and coming in. of course a good look at jun, since he's worried about the kid. understandably. dealing with grief is a hell of a time.]

It's okay. I want to be here. [he says with the simplicity of fact.] I'm sorry I didn't know how hard things have been for you.

[icanhearscreams]

[He's pale with dark circles under his eyes and his hair is flattened like he keeps fussing with it. He closes the door after Mob and walks him over to the couch.]

It's... I don't like making my problems public. What was I going to do, announce to the whole network 'by the way, Falco died'? That'd be... awkward.

[centile]

[and i forgot this started with chocolate so mob does have a pair of black cat ears, that mostly just twitch and flick. not much to them, sometimes you just have new ears in the trench.

regardless he sits down.]

Hm, I can see that. It's hard to ask for help too when nothing really seems to help at all.

[icanhearscreams]

[He just ignores them because... Trench. Trench is Trench. He sits down next to the older boy.]

Right. So it's... just frustrating to try and explain to people. Because then they'd also want to know how, and that's... not really their business.

[centile]

[mob offers a nod to that.] People have such different ideas of death and everything too. It's kind of tiring to try and keep up.

[icanhearscreams]

People are tiring in general. I don't... well. I have more friends here than I had in my world, let's put it that way.

Part of it's me - I used to be a lot more of an asshole - but part of it is just... a lot of people my age can be a Lot.

[centile]

[mob can't help but nod to that.] Yeah... they can be. I think it's worth it but- maybe sometimes it's just kind of tiring.

[that's actually kind of big for him to admit, but it's nice to say. frankly it's nice to have someone who gets that. he's surrounded by extroverts a lot of the time.

also he thinks of jun's strong reaction to young daniel being bullied and finds himself asking:]

Were they cruel to you? The people your age, in your world.

cw: child abuse/bullying

[icanhearscreams]

I'd rather read a book than interact with most people most of the time...

[His shoulders slump a little bit.]

I mean some of my friends were jerks at times, but we're barely teenage boys. Or... were.

[They're not getting any older, at least.]

It's more that... I was cruel. Especially to my younger sister. I...

[He closes his eyes for a moment and takes a deep breath before letting it out slowly.]

I blamed her for 'our mother's' death. I'd take out my anger on her - hitting her, yelling at her, the works. But later I found out that she specifically asked my friends not to stop me... and then I found out that we actually weren't related at all - her parents, the ones I'd known, weren't even my biological parents.

I... never got the chance to apologize like I should have. And I'll never make up for the way I treated her. I know that. But... at least in her memory I can try to stop other people from being jerks.